bout to have a mental breakdown

I have been stressed for a few months and just can't take this anymore. I feel so alone and unneeded constantly, every time I become happy it only lasts for a few minutes before reality kicks back in and I feel like shit. I am on the verge of cutting again and just don't know what to do anymore

>1 farun: NO DONT CUT JUST BREATHE AND RELAX YOU CAN DO THIS FARUN :)

>2 _luh_Baddie_bae: sadly it's too late for that

>1 farun: hey man listen cutting aint gonna help no matter what belive me ive been cutting for too long
you arent uneeded you are a good friend okay!!

>3 farun: listen man cutting might make it better for a min but its bad in the long run

Look, you will be okay farun. You are not and will never be alone. Look at how far you've come without having to self harm, aren't you proud of yourself? Because I'm certainly proud of you

my fucking arms are covered in blood why do I do these things to myself

>7 farun: omg dude wtf

just sit tf down and breathe

how bad is it

how many cuts and how deep

>1 farun: Honestly I've cut myself multiple times and its not fun so dont do it

please tell me man

>7 farun: just breathe alright?

>7 farun: tell me how many and how deep

>15 tyler33344: 3 and about an inch deep

>16 farun: ight welp dont do it again bc everytime you do i do

thats- both don't self harm. It's an extreme action and should not be condoned. PLease just talk it out with someone or let anyone know. If you want I can do zooms whenever I'm free and I'll gladly listen to you guys vent, just do not self harm.

>18 FRICKINGTURTLEBURPEL: aha im alr

>1 farun: you promised me you wouldn't...
why do you keep doing this to yourself...
this doesn't just hurt you it hurts the other people around you
the ones who care...

how bad is it at least...

>21 Sxkurablossom: He said It was 3 inches deep

>22 _luh_Baddie_bae: I cauterized the cuts so they should be healing now

>23 farun: OK GOOD :)

>23 farun: Farun she is worried. Why dont you try talking to her to see if that helps?

>25 _luh_Baddie_bae: I messaged her earlier but she probably busy

heyyyy guys im back ig
a lot has happened and now im living with my mom and in a lot of pain :)
my dad beat tf out of me and got arrested
im getting a restraining order bc its not the first time
idk why im telling anyone this
idc ig

>27 tyler33344: IM SO SORRY :(

>27 tyler33344: Omg im so sorry...

>29 _luh_Baddie_bae: dont be, you didnt do anything

y'all w night. Went to a football game w my bf and had sm fun

>31 FRICKINGTURTLEBURPEL: good for u

to all the people who are cutting please don't do it because there are people who care for you and love you, and i hope whatever is going on for you now will get better soon, and if you cut it might feel good at first but then you'll soon regret doing it

>32 katzuo_kxtty: tyyyy, i wrote morebut library thing cut it off ;-;

>33 katzuo_kxtty: trustt, what they're saying is absolutely correctttt! and even if you don't care about the people who love and care for you, then do it for yourself, it doesn't matter whether it's for your future self, or your younger self, just do it for yourself. Letting go of that addiction and finally having that realization that you truly love yourself is an incredible goal and acheivement. You'll feel really proud of yourself and happy that you didn't resort to your unhealthy coping mechanisms. And don't think I'm speaking out of my ass when I say this because I truly am not. I used to suffer with the same thing and the guilt would kill me almost everyday. It took a while for me to break the cycle of me having the crave to selfharm to escape from my problems. But when I finally became months from being in that hole, I felt like a brand new person and almost happier than before. If you ever need to talk to anyone I'm here. I'm not a professional therapist but I'll try my best. If i don't respond here my snap is Cute_emmyfly (I WAS 10 DONT ASK)

Guys so I just found my ex's tik tok account and hes calling me a hoe and saying Im a cheater like wtf- I need help this is making me go crazy Im about to cuss him out but thats not the right thing to do... I stil text him and hes becoming a rly nice friend but I cant do this anymore hes saying shit thats not true Im tired of him toying with me and pretending to be nice after I did all this shit for him and this is how he repays me... What should I do?...

expose him? If you ss stuff he said show that as proof and just show that he's lying and that if you really did that then why is he being all buddy buddy to you on everything else? Like ss the messages between you and him of him being cool with you and then show some from when yall were dating and shi and if you're not cool with that because it's not the best way to solve a problem then confront him privately, ask him why he's making up all this stuff and what he wants with you if he's just talking fake shi about you on the internet

>37 FRICKINGTURTLEBURPEL: But the thing is I dont have tik tok....but....I could ask my dad to take pics of our messages and expose him so yea u got a point there. Honestly Im so pissed off at him that I could honestly cuss him out but yea Ill do that

tbh, go with your gut, like if it really bothers you that much to where he's relevant to your feelings then go ahead and cuss him out, me personally though, i wouldn't let it bother me because everyones gonna hate sooner or later

>39 FRICKINGTURTLEBURPEL: Eh Its just my personality to go out on people. I feel like something is wrong with me so I get mad and sad easily even if its the littlest of things. So yea I kind of feel bad but I instantly regret feeling bad

>40 _luh_Baddie_bae: trust there's no need to apologize for how you react. If it's bad then sure, but you haven't done it so you could reflect more since you seem like the type of what to do before you act. So trust, you're all good. I get the same way too, especially if it's about things which are personal to me

>41 FRICKINGTURTLEBURPEL: Ty your a good friend :)

aww tyyy, truss I just hate when people overthink about they actions :)

>43 FRICKINGTURTLEBURPEL: :)

Guys I just went to the office today bc of my fucking ex saying I abused him then I had to show the principle proof that he called me a ho3 and now my ex is literally crying and saying its not true and he punched me during lunch recess...and starting laughing and threw me against the wall..

>45 _luh_Baddie_bae: do you have any cameras around to prove that he just did that

but most importantly are you okay

>46 Sxkurablossom: yes there are cameras and hes in trouble I have a blackeye and a concussion or just a bruise from him punching me and slamming me on the wall

>47 Sxkurablossom: Not rlly

>49 _luh_Baddie_bae: girl he could get in bad trouble for that. Literally just tell the truth and don't let him get to you and if they think you're lying then give them all the reason why you wouldn't lie about this.

hope you're okay love :(

>51 FRICKINGTURTLEBURPEL: Im kind of ok :(

>52 _luh_Baddie_bae: it'll get better trust :)

>45 _luh_Baddie_bae: wtf baby are you okay??

>48 _luh_Baddie_bae: babyyy are you alr??

>52 _luh_Baddie_bae: thats assault boo
i wish i was there he wouldnt only be in trouble with the school

>56 tyler33344: Ur so sweet :3 yes im alr kinda i got a blackeye and a lil concusion

>57 _luh_Baddie_bae: thats really bad boo, go to the doctors

>58 tyler33344: I did ^^

aiiee-

i-

:3

>62 Sxkurablossom: :>

>63 _luh_Baddie_bae: >:3

>64 Sxkurablossom: >:)

>65 _luh_Baddie_bae: heh heh heh...

>66 Sxkurablossom: hehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehehe...

Despair!

pog

Guys...me and my best friend have known each other since we were 1 and she has been bossing me around treating me like her servant so we arent friends anymore...

>70 _luh_Baddie_bae: sorry to hear that are you ok?

>71 farun: kinda but tomorrow at school im litterally gonna have no friends bc shes gonna tell everyone its "My Fault"

>72 _luh_Baddie_bae: Don't think that way. people will know she is bullshiting if they are your real friends

>73 farun: they are all fake tho

Do you want to talk about it?

>75 farun: maybe tomorrow k?

my friend got played, advice to help?

Guys I was on my way home then I guy just grabbed my leg and he was saying help me im so thirsty so I went to the gas station and got him a big water and a decent size of chex mix thinking he was homeless and needed help when I got back there he wasn't there so I started looking around and found him suffocating himself so I called 911 and got him to stop because I was screaming and crying stop it you are going to kill himself apparently there were already police on there way to find this guys because someone must have called already so they were there in like 2 or 3 minutes the police questioned me and it was so scary it turns out that that man was on drugs like really bad drugs and was going to be sent to a mental hospital then if he gets better then hes going to jail im now home and safe because they called my parents to pick me up but I am so scared still whats going to happen to that man there was four people but one of them got away the man was begging me for help was in that group but I cant get my mind off of it it happened like 2 minutes ago I cant stop hyperventilating and my head is spinning guys please help me

>78 Sxkurablossom: omg- Im so sorry that happened..

>78 Sxkurablossom: just breathe, everything will be okay. You did everything that you can: you bought him water and food, and then you reacted when you found him, you called the cops. It's okay, he's in good hands now. Everything will be okay.

>80 FRICKINGTURTLEBURPEL: I think I calmed her down...I hope

So um, other than all that how was y'all's day?

>82 Deamon53: Its pretty good ig

>82 Deamon53: wbu?

thanks everyone everything's...decent now ^^
sorry for overreacting...

one of my teachers saw what happened and was emailing me as well and gave me support and talked to my mom so...yeah ig...?

I just got yelled at by a fricken KAREN. I was at girl scouts and she was my old troop leader. She has a daughter who acts like a karen too. They rolled their eyes at me and I was about ready to yell at them. My old troop leader grabbed me by the arm and told me where I should be and now I have a mark on my arm. She acts like a child. I cant believe she is a therapist. She acts like shes popular. She is the one who needs therapy -.- I flipped them off. We got in the car and I started screaming and crying I want to yell at them so bad or smash them against the wall like they did to me. I HATE PEOPLE NOW I just hate them. I want to be lonely when Im older I dont want anything to do with people. Im done with people Im just done. Karens make me so mad. This is suprising to me because Ive never gotten this mad before in my life. EVER. I was screaming bloody murder. Thats how bad it was. One day I will expose them to their friends bc they NEVER ACT LIKE THIS to ANY OF THEIR FRIENDS. I will expose them that they are Karens. I hope she looses her job as a therapist. Shes phsyco. I am about to literally CUT MYSELF AGAIN. I HATE LIFE I HATE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING!

Please don't. I mean I do it but don't cut yourself. I am here for you bestie.

>87 _luh_Baddie_bae: thats fucking horrbile boo
are you alr??

>89 tyler33344: ye I’m ok :(

>88 kitpup: awww ty

np :3

>92 kitpup: :3

:D

>94 kitpup: ^_^

:3

Hehe

hehehehehehe

wtf is going on and >87 _luh_Baddie_bae: are you okay? also please dont cut urself, you'll regret it in the future

Yeah so true

I still do it

Please yall, get some therapy :)

If you don't think it's the best choice then please fix your mindset n how you see life

wishing yall the best

hey everyone. idk if people are still active here but I just want some advice if yall have any. my gf is grounded until she gets a 1000$ to pay for her retainer that her dog broke. I really want to see her and even just hugging her would make me happy. It's been hard to do virtual dating and I really want to meet her irl. I can call her mom and ask but I am just worried that will piss her mom off more and lead to her cutting off all our communication. does anyone have a solution for this?

>105 farun: "virtual dating" you online date 💀

>106 katzuo_kxtty: I know her irl shes like 3 miles away

its sxkurablossom-

its all I can do for now

>105 farun: Way back when, someone would go to his girlfriend's house at a reasonable time of the day and politely ask at the door to see her for a few minutes.

>110 aspirit: Wish I could do that but she is grounded and I will get beat by her dad for going to her house randomly

>111 farun: Her dad would attack you for showing up? That sounds as if she's living in a very unsafe home. She should have contact info for a local help against domestic violence somewhere safe.

Here's info for a national group.

https://www.thehotline.org/
-or- 800-799-SAFE

>112 aspirit: he just seems to be the overprotective type I didn't mean he is abusive

>113 farun: Unless you've shown yourself to be an actual physical threat, his assaulting someone who lives nearby showing up at the door would go way beyond being overprotective. There's a high change he's not only that aggressive to people outside the household.

That's why having an emergency address or number somewhere safe is a good idea.

>114 aspirit: i'll keep number in mind if he does anything

Good

They blocked librarything
I give up

nooooo

So everyone is giving me death stares and I feel so stressed and now im not sleeping or eating and am cutting lines so yah thats fun!

>119 kitpup: none of us can stop u self-harming, but if ur ready to talk about it anytime soon im here. i get tired of ppl telling me to stop but as long as ur safe about it and not go deep, its fine for now. again, a healthier method is to talk, but u prob dont wanna do that rn

I wish I knew about this site wayyy before so I could help y'all I teared up while reading some of this ngl I would hug yall because honestly yall are worth so much you may not know it now but youll see it one day and the struggles you go through are difficult but you guys are warriors you can do it regardless of what life throws at you its hard but with your strength and the people who love you, you can surely do it. I hope yall are alright now and I want you to know that you are loved, you are special, you are essential and you are worth it

tysm, going through tough times rn..this might sound made up af but its real, trust me.
my mom is/was mad at my friend, who's only 13, and has called the police on her just because of a joke that was offensive to her. She found out i had installed tiktok, discord, pinterest, etc., without her permission, and that i messaged/followed that friend (along with others) on those apps. I don't know how long i'll be grounded for, but im assuming a year from now.

My mom doesn't trust me at all b/c of things I've done and still do sometimes. I haven't had a birthday in four years. I finaly had my first christmas last year. I don't have my own room anymore from when i moved in with a friend of my mom's. My old room is now for my little sister which she never sleeps in b/c she always sleeps with my mom. I have a small closet that is always locked that has all my belongings in it. Its about 2 and a half feet wide and like 5 feet tall. I was really depressed at one point and i was addmitted to the mental hospital twice for it. The second time my mom wasn't sympathetic. I was on sleep meds at that point that drained all the energy from my body making me feel like i would pass out if I was to get up and walk after it being in my system for an hour or so. She wouldn't let me sleep, she wouldn't let me lay down or close my eyes, she only let me take small sips of her drink. I was stuck in that room for an hour or two before she left to go home and I was still there after she left. I haven't cut myself for about 3 months, but when I feel the need to cut i pull these rubberbands i keep on my wrists as far as I ca and let it go, or I'll pop my leg with it. If you feel the need to cut, just try that, if that doesn't work, pinch yourself really hard.
I don't know if I really should say this but I will just come out and say it. My mom has admitted to someone that she has gone to the extent of abusing me when she wips me. She literally used the word abuse, of course the person she told never told anyone what she said.
My mom also likes to call me just like my dad. I hate him so much. He left my life when I was 3 and has been in and out of my life whenever it was convienent from him. He is in jail once again and he's pushed away everyone that has tried to get him help or help him. My biggest fear is that I'll grow up and become just like him and my mom loves to remind me that I'm going down the same road as him

I hope whoever is going through hard struggles in life, will have a better road in the future. No one deserves to live a life where they feel worthless, usless, and voiceless. If anyone ever needs to talk, send me a private message and I will give you the best advice I can.

>122 katzuo_kxtty: its not a problem, I'm really sorry we'll get through it together though dw I may not know you but I have your back and I trust you I don't think you would make it up. your case is similar to mine just that I was dating the person, she was really pissed with me. hopefully your not grounded for a year thats way too long and you don't deserve to be grounded for that much time tbh, I'm really really sorry if there's anything I can do for you lmk I'm willing to help you any way I can

>123 Araysh: mine doesn't either but I've tried to gain her trust but I'm starting to give up. what...I'm really really really sorry I can't express how much sadness that gives me, waking up and knowing its just another normal day when its actually your birthday... I'm so sorry please allow me to celebrate your birthday and celebrate your existence because you need to know that your existence is unique and important to me even though I may not know you I'm a strong beliver that there is something special and amazing in every single person. I'm so glad you had your first christmas that brings joy to me. I hope you fully recover from your depression and I might not be certified to help you but I'll still do my best to help you if you ever need it just lmk. I'm very sorry that doesn't seem pleasant at all, thats cruel. I'm glad your not cutting yourself anymore and but doesn't that hurt? I mean its better than cutting but it'll still hurt or sting. well your free to say anything and express yourself theres not much harm in doing it, oh my god no...thats horrible I'm so sorry you have no idea, they sound like theyre trying to break you and bring you down tbh. well I just want to lyk that hate is a strong word I understand you strongly dislike him being as he is but if you learn to forgive him and just feel netural I think it'll be more benefical for you because the hate you have for him will bring you down, it took me a while to learn how to stop hating someone but when I did I felt at peace because I forgived and forgot about it it was a big relief it wasn't easy though, I can assure you, you won't end up like him don't give in to what they say, they don't know how much potential and strength you hold, prove it to them don't be afraid of them and don't be discoraged, your fear will eat you up its not easy to overcome it but I believe you can do it, if you ever need anything I'm here for you

not gonna say much, but recently i had been studying harder for an upcoming test and just the weekend before the test my dad talks/yells at me how he thinks im not going to be successful. my parents aren't ever proud of me anymore, ive thought about it a few times, but i can't really come up with any reasons to live. I don't want to kms, ig i'll jus thace to wait this period of time out.

reminds me of an old friend I had hope u get better and everyone else to

dang this chat is pretty extreme
anyway i hope everyone here is doing well rn

i am really sad rn because my mom keeps saying stuff like i should go and find another mother and that I don't love her. my birthday is coming up and she said that on my birthday she is gonna buy herself some food and not celebrate my birthday. i always feel like I have done something wrong to my mom and I also feel like she never cares about me.

are you only raised by your mom?

>131 1hope: no

>129 Randomz: and personal too

>130 joe.: I'm so sorry wtf... although its hard not to take it personal, don't take it personal.its fine if she does it at the end of the day she'll proabably end up regretting it. maybe youve done something wrong but that doesnt mean its unforgivable. she may not care about you, it hurts I know it does but you have support here if theres anything you need lmk. the best you can do now is let her be maybe shes going through a tough time. also when's ur birthday??

>134 ruby_x1: it was yesterday

>135 joe.: noooo I missed it aughh. well happy late b-day!!🎉🎂

I hope all your wishes come true!!!

>137 ruby_x1: thx :)

>138 joe.: yw!

some dude in my class was talking crap about me and the kid in my science group encouraged the behaviour
i caught them talking crap about me when they thought i wasnt present at school
that kid was also a new kid and he started treating like crap when he got "friends"
i want to punch him in the face and im just wanna bawl my eyes out in class rn (since im typing this in class)
everyone treats me like crap in school since im just built different and since i dont hang out "popular" nor "cool" kids
i usually hang out with some of the "built different" kids and some of the nice but really smart kids too, too bad none of the kids i hang out with are in my classes :(

>141 Randomz: beat him up like follow him in the bathroom alone and jump him

>141 Randomz: im so sorry that happened to u!! i hate feeling like an outcast too, but please just ignore them n dont let it get to ur head. stay strong, were here 4u 💕💗

>143 katzuo_kxtty: its better to fight back

>142 timidturtle5211: mf what violence isnt always the answer 😭💀💀 u can handle it without fighting

>145 katzuo_kxtty: when someone messes with you you mess with them and put them in a wheelchair

>145 katzuo_kxtty: she gets it!! exactly! violenece jst gets violent n shii u solve nothing except ruin a persons life.

>141 Randomz: don't mind them!! they are not worth ur time don't let them get to you. if this keeps happening let the administrators know asap cz what they are doing is not okay its pure bs. you do you and let them talk crap youre more than what they say, like kxtty_fangzz said stay strong, were here for you!!

>145 katzuo_kxtty: why you lieee 😜

i love the feeling of ur life isn't where u want it and you know you only have yourself to blame

you okay...? life won't always where u want it but u can fix that not sure if its ur fault but u can change ur life around :)

i'll live...hopefully

me just working my ass off just to be yelled by myparents

don't worry about them...youre doing good!! :)

I'm here for you!!

>153 1hope: yell back

>156 timidturtle5211: thats how you get ur ass grounded, and it will make the situation worse..

lord have mercy i just joined this chat just now

>158 TeggyLuvsYu: welcome totally ignore the suffering here have a great time!!!

>157 katzuo_kxtty: naw thats how i get kicked out the house

>160 1hope: That's how my parents kill me bro, your lucky haha only getting kicked out.....

fr...

>153 1hope: I'm sorry to hear that. It can be really tough to work hard and not feel appreciated. Have you talked to your parents about how their yelling makes you feel? It's important for them to understand the impact their words have on you. Remember, your hard work is valuable and deserves recognition. Keep pushing forward and don't give up on your goals.